Unexpected Changes

It seems that the earth has conspired to change the direction of my business ventures and my perception of life in Lima.

My past few posts have mostly focused upon my recent trials in Lima and unfortunately make it appear that I am humming a tune of doom and gloom.

Rather, I prefer that my past few posts remain as a testament of my trials and future triumphs. There is no man or woman that goes through this life without being tested or refined.

I have been (in more-words-or-less) resigned to return back to the drawing board. Sometimes I feel like Wile E. Coyote who comes up with what seems to be a great and functional idea, but when he tries to use it or tests it out it only proves to be deficient in its function. Still chasing the Road Runner, I am.

I am an admittedly ambitious broad, a restless creative type that often finds herself like a wild creature confined to pace anxiously behind the bars of limitation. Maybe I would loosely fall under the label of a free spirit.

I also commonly find myself commended for my potential and my innate talents. I ponder, what are potential and talent without accomplishment? They are but wasted wishes and unrealized dreams.

It is a fact that I have and I am embarking upon a new direction that I did not envision, but it does not indicate that I have lost my vision. “Keep your eye on the prize,” a saying oft repeated. I continue in this new direction with new opportunities. It appears that my training is not yet over, I still have a thing-or-two to learn in this adventure.

It so appears that I will be dusting off business concepts that I had drawn up last year. I am grateful for the road blocks that I have encountered, it was there for a purpose. I suppose that purpose was to prevent me from investing in a non-lucrative venture.

I also must acknowledge that my husband, my great support, encouraged me by saying:

“Work with what you really like to show and do.”

It was at that very moment that I remembered that if I am engaged in a business that I enjoy then I will more than likely be able to increase my probabilities of being successful in it; whereas if I am engaged in an activity that I eventually come to loath then I will be but a bankrupt individual spiritually and financially.

So as to close the loop of this reflection, I am still dealing with my changed perception of life in Lima. I have become concerned by the seemingly increased delinquency in Lima. It is one of the factors involved in my resignation to the drawing board. I do not know if this perception has been artificially influenced due to the media reports combined with my personal experience. I feel almost paranoid as if my children and I are walking around with bull marks painted upon us. We live in a district that is not frequently visited by foreign tourists and we are but a handful of “gringo” residents that inhabit this coastal area.

I now comprehend the necessity for personal security. I used to perceive a body guard or chauffeur as an elective luxury of the affluent. I realize that only so much personal precaution can be taken, but when you feel that your security and the security of your family is being compromised then you consider if the luxury is really a necessary insurance for one’s safety and peace of mind.

If the earth has conspired to test my family and I this thoroughly during the first two quarters of 2008 then I do pray that it conspires to reward us for our endurance and resilience.